I come across an ego here and even though it comes out of my mouth
"I'm not a Christian! Jesus is dead! the resurrection of Jesus is a
myth!' in enormous fear that the person in front of me is going to hit
me, i say in my concience: 'im a christian!', but in pure panic, in
fear that this male here is going to hit me (this is the ego of the
hand of jealousy over my life, who adhers to either one of two things:
any person who has seen my mother's face, in her not seeing me as a
man, i become the victim of being opined,
and any person who's seen this person who calls herself my 'niece'
whom now at a distance conducts herself in 'tu' towards me, but when i
try to become conscient of God i become conscient of the ***ual manner
with which she perceives me and opines over my life.),
This is Jesus in my life!!: this is the hand of a psycho over my life,
i desire nothing to do with Jesus!!
when i within me, scream this to God my voice loses its weight.
Jesus to me hendry leon: is dead!! i feel as though i become a puppet
living under the ego of sodomized hilda over my life to which this
sodomized fellow 'dave' adhers to in his faith set on money over my
entire life!!!
* i never sodomized a male! nor was i sodomized!
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