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************SPV.......My, my, my all the pretty red dresses at the
Oscar. A couple of black and a couple of white and a couple of blue,
but the style seemed to made up of red dresses. And if you take the
red pill you go after the rabbit and if you take the blue pill you
wake up back in the matrix where you can't remember to bother why when
Stephen woke up this morning and there were only five stars in the
sky, why nobody notice but him.
Now did you see the movie with Jason Robart, "The day after?" or "The
next day after?" Did you see the guy fight with his wife to stop
making the bed because there was the H-bombs going off all over and
she was in such denial that he had to drag her to the bomb shelter
because her daughter was getting married tomorrow and she had to get
the house in order for all the guest that were coming? Did you see
how the farmer had to literally drag her to the bomb shelter? Now do
any of you see the denial that we are all in and when Allison says,
"Are you expecting us to believe that 90% of the stars are missing
from the sky and nobody says a word about it in the newspaper and in
all the Astromony magazines?"
Allison, I wrote to 1/2 a dozen Observatories around the world and
they have these websites that ask for feedback and anything new the
public has found and I asked, "I am wondering why two, three years ago
I could see millions of stars and now only a handful and I have
checked each night for two years and in 20 different states in the
United States and all I see is maybe 1,000 stars at most and I
remember seeing millions of stars, what gives?"
Allison, not one e-mail came back.
I went to Mental Health in Boulder and said, "I am worried we are
going to have another mass suicide like on Holloween when they did
that radio broadcast of "War of the Worlds". The Head-Shrink said,
"Why is someone planning to do that again to scare people."
I replied, "No, but for two years most of the stars in the night sky
are missing and I would like you to check because maybe my eyes are
going bad or maybe we are all in some huge denial that could bust and
we could have some mass suicide, or even I will admit if you see that
there are stars then I will immediately come in for massive help
because I am scared because most of the stars are missing."
The Head-Shrink says, "I live in the mountains and I will go home and
look and re****t back if the stars are missing or not."
I said, "Doctor you call me tomorrow because if the stars are missing
I want to know and if they are there I want to immediately come in for
some serious help."
She never called and three months later when I saw the doctor the
doctor said, "I check and I want to ask you Stephen, should we be
worried because the clear night sky as you said in the mountains used
to have billions of stars and now just maybe 50 and something is
changed and you are right nobody seems to even notice."
Now know this Allison. Now knowing this David. Now knowing this
Blake and Barbie and Denise that I know read here. Now knowing this
Mark L. and Gordon whose name is John. Could any of you break the
denial and take a good honest look at the sky and tell me where 90% of
the stars and if you notice and look for some time always I would see
one or two shooting stars and now, nothing. Could any of you that
think I am crazy just take a good honest look and not write what you
think is there, not write what you saw years ago or what is in books,
but take a good honest look and count the stars you see and then lets
go back and get some old pictures and look and see if what you are
seeing has changed or not. Could any of you manage the courage to do
that. Blake, can you give your father that much effort with you
passive aggressive behavior. I know you never had much a father, but
then maybe you don't know what a real man is. And Blake I wrote this
whole thing for you. Remember the best is always saved for last.
Blake, remember when you took me to 7-11 and you just jammed the car
into that group of guys and I said, "Why you jam us into those guys
like that. You trying to get me into a fight?" And you said, "You
should get into shape before you think about getting into any fights."
Blake, don't you know who or what I am? Ask Gary Vanier if I need to
be in shape to knock anyone out of any size? How much shape do you
need to be in when you hit so hard that I knock out the last ten guys
I got into fights with one single punch?
When you thought I was at the homeless shelter I had $2,000 cash in my
pocket and I was sleeping with a group of drunks. They saw the money
and three of them jumped me. The first guy just wilted when I yelled
at him but he was distraction while this black guy 6'4" jumped me from
behind, but as he made his move I turned and grabbed him by the throat
and used his momentum to swing him over my shoulder and slam him into
the concret. He would have gotten up but I thumb was on his windpipe
and he knew if he moved I would kill him in an instant by cru****ng his
windpipe. The Alpha Male who was twenty years younger and 245 lbs
comes and stars to punch me but I blocked each and every blow before
he could swing those Rocky roundhouse punches. After I gave up and
said, "I surrender." He stopped trying to hit me and I said, "Were
you just fighting me and I didn't even know it? Amazing" He was out
of breath and I hadn't even known we were fighting.
Blake, ask Gary if I can't kick some ass when I am so moved. Why you
think I am the nicest guy in the world? Kid, I got nothing to prove.
Now you need those papers signed that gets you all the money you need
for the apartment and food and schooling because if you are in Masters
Program they even give you about $1,500 more than undergrad work. Let
me know and I will sign them and send them to you because after all
you never took me to lunch last time so I figure you are still in that
womanish passive aggressive stance.
Blake you know why I am mad at you? You waited until I was down and
out before you just turned me down for a very small favor. You waited
until I really needed you and then when I almost had to beg you turned
me down. This is passive aggressive anger. This is how my brother
fights. This is how women fight. They do not come up to you honestly
and say, "I am really mad at you for leaving mom and me." They do
what my brother did. When I was down my brother went to all my
friends and get this one and how sick this is, for he said, "Don't
help my brother because the sooner he hits rock bottom the sooner he
will come to me for help."
That was the sickest move I ever saw a human being do to another.
Totally sabatoged me. And sure you are going to hit rock bottom if
you are with some problem, but I was getting more and more healthy and
they were trying to drag me back into a dysfunctional relation****p.
You are in a dysfunctional relation****p right now with them and I do
not know if I can help you or not. I can't get you by the denial of
most of the stars missing. I mean to think that city lights are
causing the problem is nonsense. I checked now in 20 different states
as I bring these cars back from auction. I tell you about that when
you ask so I know you read this far.
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